love yourself

"I think you're looking for something,

but you don't know what it is.

I think maybe that's why you 

cling to certain kinds of people,

to secure something in yourself that you're doubting.

Perhaps, in some sense,

you doubt your own future

which is why you always find

yourself in the hardest situations.

And then, you wonder why they leave.

You wonder why they don't need you or love you.

The truth falls heavy.

It's not that they don't love you.

Maybe you, my dear, still haven't

learned to love yourself."

- R. M. Drake

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Hi guys. So I know I've been gone for a very long time. I'm so sorry. I just want to let you all know that I'm still here. I haven't been blogging because I was just too busy with school. But now that school's done (yaaass!), hopefully I'll be blogging again. I miss you all so much. 
Till next time,
Cindy :)

a letter...

Dear boyfriend,

I just want to say that you are such an amazing and lovely human being. I know I may not always tell you how much you mean to me, but you are everything to me. You make my days better and my nights serene. I want to thank you for being a wonderful boyfriend. I knew when I met you, an adventure was going to happen.

I want to write this letter to you, not just because it's Valentine's Day (okay maybe) but because I want to say all the things that I am so grateful to have you in my life. Thank you for being my best friend. You're the first person I want to talk to when something happens. Just being around you makes me happy. Thank you for listening to me and my rants. I know you probably don't care about this girl I don't like, but thanks for sticking with me and hearing me out. Thank you for being there with me when I'm a mess. The way you hold me when I cry and the things you do to make me feel better. Thank you for making me feel beautiful. You always tell me how beautiful I am, even when I just woke up in the morning or my face all red after crying. Thank you for always believing in me, even when I can't believe in myself. You are a great confidence booster. But most of all, thank you for being you. I just can't get enough of you. The way your voice sounds, your laugh, your smile, the way you think, how you look at me... I'm in love with all those things that make up who you are.

I always love how we don't need to talk when we're together. Just being with you is enough. I feel more like myself when I'm with you. I feel comfortable. I trust you with me. And honestly, you made me realize that the word home is not a place but a feeling. When I'm in your arms, I feel at home. You'd be nice to come home to every day. I feel so lucky to have you in my life and thank you for being so amazing.

Love,
Cindy

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A letter I wrote to my boyfriend for Valentine's Day tomorrow.

Happy Valentine's Day! <3

hymn for the weekend

Hymn For The Weekend - Coldplay Ft. Beyonce

Oh, angel sent from up above

You know you make my world light up

When I was down, when I was hurt

You came to lift me up

Life is a drink, and love's a drug

Oh, now I think I must be miles up

When I was a river, dried up

You came to rain a flood

adventure

I want to go on an adventure.

I want to explore a place I've never been to before.

I want to see something I've never seen before.

I want to breathe new and fresh air.

I want to wake up to a marvellous view.

I want to eat and try different foods.

I want to see the sun from a different country.

And meet the moon somewhere foreign.

The hunger for new memories and experiences.

I need it soon. I need it now.

But most of all, I want to adventure with you.

I want to hold your hand in every new place we go.

I want to do things I've never done with you.

With the world full of wonder, I want to explore with you.

Let's just pack and go.

hello 2016

It's 2016. I'm glad to say I've made it this far. 2015 has been a rugged year. But I had to say it was a way better year than 2014. There were some good days and there were some bad days. But what year would not have bad days? No year is perfect.

I left my icky job at Breakaway Distributing and started school in September. I've met lots of new people and made new friends. I started to do yoga and learning the art of it. I have developed my relationship more with my boyfriend of one year now. And I learned to love myself more and to be more positive.

2015 has taught me so many things and I'm kind of glad that some negative things happened because I wouldn't be the person I am today. I wouldn't have learned anything if it weren't for those terrible days. Those days where I just wanted to give up. But it's 20 freaking 16. 

I want to leave all the bad things that happened last year and be a better person this year. 

I want to do and learn more things, meet more people, and see the world. 

I want to love and cherish the people that are in my life, and to stay by my side. 

I want to go on as many adventures as I can. 

I hope 2016 will be a good one.

Happy New Year!