why i like to write

I like to write. It lets out my thoughts and feelings out. And it feels good. I wish I wrote a lot earlier. But ever since I started writing almost two years ago, I became attached to it. Now, it's a necessary thing. I need to write. My thoughts were always trapped in a cage. I need to let them out.

I started to write my own words because I became obsessed with reading other writings. It made me feel like I'm not the only one. It makes me feel so good within my soul that I just want to do the same to somebody.

i am

I Am - Awolnation

All of these things made me who I am

Maybe all of these things made me who I am

Maybe all of these things made me who I am

And I am

Only looking up when my head's down

I wish you could hear all the words I'm too afraid to say.

i can't stop thinking about it

You know that one thing you can't stop thinking about? 

It keeps you up at night and you have a wave of emotions going on. Even when you try so hard to forget, it just creeps back up whenever it feels like. That one thing. I still think about it, even if it's in the past. You're supposed to move on and forget about it, but not me. When things go wrong with me, I will forever remember it. Years will past, and I will still remember that terrible moment. That feeling of stupidity and embarrassment. And you just want to run away or not even exist anymore. But sometimes, at the end of the day, I have to remind myself that I survived 100% of my worst days, I think I will be alright.