I've been stuck.
It's like I've been going in circles and I'm back to where I started.
It feels like I'm going nowhere. No where close to where I want to be.
I just want to be happy. To be free.
I don't know where to find that, but I hope I get there soon.
I just don't know what's good anymore.
I'm constantly overthinking the possibilities, to the point of madness.
Because I am mad. Mad at myself.
I can't deny that I'm mad at the world too. I wonder, why me?
My thoughts scare me. I need to stop.
All I just want is for this to work.
And I am so desperate for answers.
My obsession with finding out the answers became unhealthy.
I was paranoid.
I was scared.
I felt nothing and I felt everything.
I just need to know what is happening.
I fear uncertainty. That is one of the worst feelings.
The feeling of not knowing something.
And you can't do anything about it.
The answers will come eventually.
I just need to be patient with myself.
This explains exactly how I've been feeling lately. *sigh* Don't worry, you're not only. <3
ReplyDeletexx Mackenzie
Thanks Mackenzie! And that makes me feel a lot better that I'm not alone in this. :)
DeleteThis is quite possibly the most relate-able post I've ever had the pleasure of reading!
ReplyDeleteAw thanks so much Jordy! :)
DeleteYou are such a writer. And when I say writer, I mean writer.
ReplyDeleteThe way you play with words...it's beautiful.
Thank you so much Tane!! You have no idea how happy I am with your lovely comments.
DeleteThank you. <3