quiet

The girl who is always quiet.

She has a lot of unsaid thoughts. 

Scared to tell someone, but dying to let them out. 

This girl is me.

outer space

"I like space," he said.

"Why?" she wondered.

"Because in space, all of my problems are far, far away.
No misunderstandings. No chaos. No human destructiveness.
It is an unlimited expanse of possibilities.
I want to get lost in the vastness of the universe.
It is somewhere I can be free.
Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known.

But most of all, you are like outer space.
A never ending wonder.
Your eyes are like galaxies, shining so bright in the darkest of nights.
Your smile warms me up like the sun.
Your lips trace my skin like constellations.
You are my universe and I want to get lost in you."

love yourself

"I think you're looking for something,

but you don't know what it is.

I think maybe that's why you 

cling to certain kinds of people,

to secure something in yourself that you're doubting.

Perhaps, in some sense,

you doubt your own future

which is why you always find

yourself in the hardest situations.

And then, you wonder why they leave.

You wonder why they don't need you or love you.

The truth falls heavy.

It's not that they don't love you.

Maybe you, my dear, still haven't

learned to love yourself."

- R. M. Drake

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Hi guys. So I know I've been gone for a very long time. I'm so sorry. I just want to let you all know that I'm still here. I haven't been blogging because I was just too busy with school. But now that school's done (yaaass!), hopefully I'll be blogging again. I miss you all so much. 
Till next time,
Cindy :)

a letter...

Dear boyfriend,

I just want to say that you are such an amazing and lovely human being. I know I may not always tell you how much you mean to me, but you are everything to me. You make my days better and my nights serene. I want to thank you for being a wonderful boyfriend. I knew when I met you, an adventure was going to happen.

I want to write this letter to you, not just because it's Valentine's Day (okay maybe) but because I want to say all the things that I am so grateful to have you in my life. Thank you for being my best friend. You're the first person I want to talk to when something happens. Just being around you makes me happy. Thank you for listening to me and my rants. I know you probably don't care about this girl I don't like, but thanks for sticking with me and hearing me out. Thank you for being there with me when I'm a mess. The way you hold me when I cry and the things you do to make me feel better. Thank you for making me feel beautiful. You always tell me how beautiful I am, even when I just woke up in the morning or my face all red after crying. Thank you for always believing in me, even when I can't believe in myself. You are a great confidence booster. But most of all, thank you for being you. I just can't get enough of you. The way your voice sounds, your laugh, your smile, the way you think, how you look at me... I'm in love with all those things that make up who you are.

I always love how we don't need to talk when we're together. Just being with you is enough. I feel more like myself when I'm with you. I feel comfortable. I trust you with me. And honestly, you made me realize that the word home is not a place but a feeling. When I'm in your arms, I feel at home. You'd be nice to come home to every day. I feel so lucky to have you in my life and thank you for being so amazing.

Love,
Cindy

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A letter I wrote to my boyfriend for Valentine's Day tomorrow.

Happy Valentine's Day! <3

hymn for the weekend

Hymn For The Weekend - Coldplay Ft. Beyonce

Oh, angel sent from up above

You know you make my world light up

When I was down, when I was hurt

You came to lift me up

Life is a drink, and love's a drug

Oh, now I think I must be miles up

When I was a river, dried up

You came to rain a flood