waiting

I feel like I have always been waiting.

Waiting for the person that I want to become.
Waiting for the life I thought I would have.

Always daydreaming of the life I wish I had.

Dreaming of a life of living in a nice apartment, 

having an amazing job that I love, and a man that I come home to and give me cuddles.

And here I am, still waiting for this day.

This moment of my life to start.

I am waiting for that time, that person, that event when my life will finally begin.

twenty

Today, I turn twenty. I am officially not a teen anymore. But really, I still feel like a kid. I am so lucky to say that I have lived for twenty years and counting. I have learned so many things throughout the years. Now I look back at my life and think; so many mistakes, failures and awkward situations I've made. And that is okay. Being in my twenties now is a whole new step. I don't know if I am ready for it. The term 'adult' scares me. Being one has so many responsibilities. When I was younger, being an adult to me meant being successful, smart, and just know how to do things. Now I am one and I have none of those qualities. I ask myself, "what am I doing with my life?" I still don't know. All I know is that there are numerous adventures just waiting for me. I am still young. And I want to use my youth to go to new places, meet new people, make new friends, and make new memories. I want to just go. And I will answer my question someday. It's not over yet.

- 15 August, 2014

I wrote this yesterday which was my birthday, but I posted it today cause I didn't had time. :)

This was my birthday cake I got at a sushi restaurant with my family. So pretty! <3

my bed

P.S. this is not my bed. Wish it was. :P

Oh how I love my bed.

It is the most comfortable place there is.

I laugh, cry, get angry, feel ecstatic; all on my bed.

It knows all my secrets. It comforts me, and keeps me warm and safe.

It's where I make up scenarios in my head that I wish could happen in real life.

I never want to leave my bed.

It is where I sleep.

Nothing is better than that.

You forget everything for a while and transport into another world.

An escape.

It's where I let my dreams go wild.

beside you

Beside You - 5 Seconds of Summer

She sleeps alone

My heart wants to come home

I wish I was, I wish I was beside you

She lies awake

I'm trying to find the words to say

I wish I was, I wish I was beside you

I am in love with 5SOS at the moment. Their new album is so good!! <3

through the fire

I ran. I ran as fast as I can.
The whole building is on fire and I hear people screaming with terror.
I see the orange flames glow down the hallway catching up to me.
My lungs feel like they are about to burst and my breaths feel shorter.
I feel a strong pair of hands grab a hold of mine.
I can't see whose it is, but they are pulling me away from the danger with their life.
At that moment, I feel safe. Knowing that someone is right next to me made me sigh with relief.
I don't want to be alone in this.
As we got out of the burning building, I looked up as I coughed. It was him.
His deep blue eyes looked at me with the utmost worry I've ever seen.
He was still holding on to me.
I never want him to let go.
Can we stay in this moment forever?