happy new year!

Today is the last day of 2013.

It felt like this year went by way too fast. I hope 2014 will bring me happiness and a sense of direction of where I need to be in this world. I am really thankful for my closest friends who have been with me throughout the year, even when I am struggling and dealing with some problems, they have stuck with me, and I truly thank them for everything.

No matter what 2013 was for you, you can choose what 2014 is for you. May you challenge your fears, live out your desires and fight for all of your dreams. I will gently tuck 2013 into bed and wake on 2014 with a strong cup of coffee. 

2014 Goals

Be more confident

Break one bad habit

A new skill I'd like to learn

A place I'd like to visit

Read more books

Take more pictures

Blog and write more

Stay strong

Exercise more

Start doing yoga

Attend a concert

Have fun

Meet and fall in love with someone

Be more awesome than last year

- Brad Paisley

little white lies

Little White Lies - One Direction

If this room was burning

I wouldn't even notice

Cause you've been taking up my mind

With your little white lies, little white lies

merry christmas!

Merry Christmas everyone!!

I hope you all get what you wished for and hope you enjoy this day with lots of laughter and happiness. 

all i want for christmas is

Christmas is only two days away!! That's crazy!

Hope you all have a great holiday and spend them with your loved ones. 

So I wanted to post this yesterday, however my area had a terrible ice storm. Literally it was snowing ice. And Sunday morning, I woke up to see that everything was covered in ice! Not only that, many cities around my area had a power outage!! No power, no heat, no electricity, no internet. I was going crazy without internet. Luckily I had a book that I haven't started reading and I was hoping to start soon! I was reading Afterlife by Claudia Gray, the last book in the Evernight series. So that got me entertained because it is so good!!

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But now I want to share a little something that I'm pretty sure you'll enjoy, since we're all fangirls here. 

All I really want for Christmas is someone who can understand me. Who I can talk to about anything. Who can be my best friend and lover. Who can be there for me when I'm at my worst and still love me. 

So I have a list of my favourite guys who I am currently obsessed with because I wish that I could find someone like them. (Why can't guys be like them! *sob*) They are my dream guys and oh how I wish one of them would appear under my Christmas tree.

So here they are!

Daniel Sharman

Josh Hutcherson

Niall Horan

Jamie Campbell Bower

Max Irons

Sam Claflin

Jeremy Sumpter

Joseph Morgan

Nathaniel Buzolic

I wish any one of them would appear in my room right now. T-T 

Oh well.

internet kids never sleep

Sleep

What is sleep?

I am here for all the internet kids out there who can never sleep or have a really messed up sleeping schedule (me) because of extensive use of the INTERNET.

Every night I struggle to fall asleep because I am just up online going on twitter or watching something, or even reading. But even if I try to sleep, I have a million thoughts going on in my head. Like everything that is going on in my life, or wish that had. And I make lovely scenarios that I wish my life was like. *sad face* 

But anyway, I'm pretty much a zombie during the day, and I don't even function properly until like 5pm. That's only when I wake up early for school or work or whatever. And then I'm like wide awake at night. Like what is this?

I have no idea where I'm going with this but I just wanna see who's the same. Or if you have any advice to help me fall asleep better, that would be great. 

Thanks for reading. :)

red hair

This is going to be random but I just really love red hair, and maybe one day I'm going to dye my hair red. My natural hair colour is black, but it would be so nice to have a nice red hair. I really love the dark red colour, I don't know it just looks so pretty and fierce. 

I think what inspired me was Ariana Grande. I watched the show Victorious and I really loved Ariana's hair colour. She had to have red hair for her character. And I just fell in love with that colour.

Sorry these are just so pretty. <3

ride

Ride - Lana Del Rey

Every night I used to pray that I’d find my people, and finally I did on the open road.

We had nothing to lose, nothing to gain, nothing we desired anymore, except to make our lives into a work of art.

Live fast. Die young. Be wild. And have fun.

I believe in the country America used to be.

I believe in the person I want to become.

I believe in the freedom of the open road.

And my motto is the same as ever:

"I believe in the kindness of strangers. And when I’m at war with myself I ride, I just ride."

Who are you?

Are you in touch with all of your darkest fantasies?

Have you created a life for yourself where you can experience them?

I have. I am f*** crazy.

But I am free.

wallflower

Wallflower:

Definition: In social situations, a wallflower is a shy or unpopular individual who doesn't socialize or participate in activities at social events. He or she may have other talents but usually does not express them in the presence of other individuals.

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I should have posted this a while ago, the definition of a wallflower. This is the title of my domain name. Some may not know what it means to be a wallflower. 

I consider myself to be a wallflower. I don't like to be in the center of attention, I like to be at the sides, observing. I prefer to watch rather than participate. 

Just thought I'd let you know. :)

"He's a wallflower. You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand."

- Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

read a book

“Sometimes, you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal, and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book."

- John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

top of the world

Top of the World - Hedley

You take me to the bottom of the ocean

You take me to the depths of your beautiful eyes

I'm on top of the world, flying, flying

RIP Paul Walker

Omg I just heard the news about Paul Walker, an incredible actor. :(

He was such an amazing person.

The Fast & Furious franchise is one of the best out there because of him.

My heart goes out to his family, friends and Fast & Furious family.

We will miss you.

RIP Paul <3

hiii!!

So I'm new to blogging and I wanted to start my own after reading some really good ones. I learned that there are so many people who are like me! They have inspired me and I just want to give this a try. Even though I'm not the best at writing, this place gives me chance to write my feelings online and share it with others who feel the same.

So enough of that, I'm going to introduce myself.

My name is Cindy.

I'm 19.

Canadian born and raised.

Chinese background.

A bookworm.

And a college drop out who has no idea what to do with her life.